Tuesday, December 11, 2018

Catching Up ~

Hello, lovelies. It's been a hard month.. I've been very withdrawn because of everything that's been happening and instead of posting a Welcome, December post right away, I thought I should share how I've been feeling. ❤️

Right now we have some rosemary incense burning, I've relaxed with new age activities like listening to my horoscope and reading my tarot and generally basking in the calmness of leaving a toxic space. 

Last month, I started playing The Elder Scrolls Online. I found a guild almost instantly, a vampire Court. Sounds fun! The guild leader was super sweet, in fact, everyone was. They invited me to the Discord, and everything was fine.. For a while. (Awhile or a while? Ahhhh.)

While everything was still going well, I had Ástrid join with me. Ah, sorry, love. 😭

The first instance was people posting memes. Ah, good old memes.. They can really make me laugh, but these were the kind that you know were only made to hurt and make fun of people. We both had an issue with this and left. The guild leader contacted us and said this would never happen again, we had his word, he really liked us, etc. and he seemed super sweet.. So we went back. People can change. I wasn't that great of a person during my childhood and early adult years, until I realized that every thing my parents taught me was toxic and hurtful and I instantly stopped. If I could do that, so could others!

I'd give them a chance! After we rejoined, everything was so much better.

Until.. The negativity started. Mention ANY other game? A hobby we loved? Music we listened to? "Ew" or "Lame" was often the response. This didn't happen to just us, either. 

But.. I could deal with that, sure. Despite spending a week or two crying, because I can't handle negativity towards myself and others. 

Next, the guild leader, who treated us with a lot of kindness and praised us for our role-play, etc. started shit talking other people. He wanted to permakill this character, and how dare this other person role-play the way they were (they were role-playing a polite character, but we're an evil vampire guild, grrrr.) 

Here's the thing. I judge people by how they act behind closed doors. If you're talking to me about your toxic friend or relationship, that's one thing. If you're venting about a rude customer, that's another. But when you're full of hate towards someone for doing.. Absolutely nothing wrong, and not even letting them have fun, ruining their time spent on a game that they love. That's where I wonder just what kind of person they really are. I also felt bad for the other role-player.

This caused more stress. More crying. More crying for the other person involved, even though they didn't even know what was being said about them.

But finally, the line was crossed. The second in command of the guild and the guild leader's best friend OOC started talking, OOC, about how he hurts animals and people. Physically. That was where we knew that, no matter what, we couldn't teach these people or move on from this and so we left.

We'll role-play on our own, together, because we have each other and that's all that matters. We made the right choice, despite nights of stress and anger. Should I have stayed out the first time I left? Probably. But I hate letting people down and I prefer to give people second and even third chances, because that's just who I am.

I really did go through a horrible month, which severely drained my own health and I can't help but feel that that was stupid, especially over a game. But eh, live and learn. 

So.. That's why I've been so absent. So withdrawn. Here and on social media. Ástrid and I are sad about what happened, and why we had to leave, but not sad that we did. We both feel relief that we aren't around these people anymore. So we can only move forward.

I hope I can share better stories with you soon. ❤️ Thank you to anyone who has stuck around while I've been absent, you rock! Have a lovely Monday and remember to always take care of yourself. 

Monday, November 5, 2018

Welcome, November~!! 🌽

Welcome, November~!! 🌽 I love the start of a new month. New goals to be completed, new memories to be made and the latter is especially true as we move deeper into Autumn. The night is fair drawin in. We haven't had any snow yet, which is good, giving the Earth time to do her thing and the animals time to prepare, but it's definitely gotten chillier. Those who've known me for a while will know that it's officially Angie hoodie and cardigan season. 🤗

Some of my November goals are: 

🍂 Keep on top of my to-do list. This goal sounds easy, but it's not when you have mental disabilities that work against you. I've had so much build up that it's more of a daunting task than a simple to-do list. I want it to be so that when we enter December, I have no old to-do list.
🍁 Eat more vegetarian foods. I often eat meat because I'm anemic but I can't take iron, so I depend on red meats, but at the same time, as an animal lover and Pagan, I want to limit the animals I eat. Plus, vegetarian food is generally healthier (at least, the kind we buy!! Please don't come at me.) When we do buy meat, as well as eggs, cheese, etc. I'm thinking we'll mainly shop at our local organic market. (Of course, there will be exceptions, like visiting the Korean market!!) Sadly, all of this can't start until the 15th. Ugh. 

🍂 Speaking of Korea: practice my Korean. This course, 90 Day Korean, had a sale for one month of courses for $1. Obviously, I jumped at the chance. I'm working through the first week now and.... It's hella confusing to me, especially because what I learned about romanization before was WRONG, but I have faith I'll get there and Ástrid has a lot of faith in me. 😊 (I really want a Korean to English - English to Korean dictionary, so I don't have to depend on Google translate. 😓)

🍁 Take more pictures. I used to take soooo many per month and I feel like my Instagram has severely been lacking. Pictures are so important to me, so I'll make sure that I take more this month. 📸

🍂 Take the best possible care of my little family that I can. This can include keeping the bank out of the red (I'm so bad with money), making appointments for us and making sure we keep them, eating better in general and so on. This is the most important goal!! I want us all to be healthy and happy. 😊

There's also some little stuff, like finishing the K-drama series' I've been watching, cleaning my desk (though I guess that's part of my to-do list!!), interacting more with friends online and so on. Give me strength, lovelies~!! 

I hope you all have a healthy and happy November yourselves~!!    

Wednesday, October 31, 2018

Happy Halloween and Samhain~!! Goodbye, October~!!

Me as a Spider Witch

Hi, lovelies~!! Did you all have a good Halloween (and Samhain, if you celebrate it)?? I hope so!! Ástrid had planned to visit her endocrinologist (her Doctor who prescribed her HRT) on Halloween, so she could wear her Mercy costume, meaning going out as herself for the first time. We woke up early and got ready, went and had a wonderful morning. Minus her blood being drawn, ouchies. 

I know she was scared to go out, but she was also so brave and everything went fine. 💕

Ástrid's Mercy from Overwatch costume!! This was a costume and makeup test before Halloween, though. I didn't get a picture today, ahhhh. 

We came home and pretty much crashed. Neither of us have been sleeping well and we didn't have anything else planned. Once dinner was ready, we had some BBQ beef, deviled eggs, pumpkin pie and cider rum punch. Mmmm!! Plus chips and dip for later, and loooots of candy as it's been so cold lately, so not a lot of kids stopped by!! 

I played some Overwatch, as the new competitive season started and now Ástrid is writing her short story and I am blogging. 😊 It's been a nice day and a nice night and I'm excited to see what November will bring (please, everything good.)

In October, I wrote the posts: Currently, where I talked about all of my current activities and interests, Happy Rebirthday, Ástrid as my gorgeous wife celebrated her 2nd year on HRT!! Full Hunter's Moon Dream Board, where I shared what I was dreaming for from this month's Full Moon until (and beyond) next month's.

I need to catch up on all of your lovely posts. I'll do my best!! Fighting!! 😊 

Goodnight, and Blessed Be~!! 

Wednesday, October 24, 2018

Full Hunter's Moon Dream Board

Tonight's Full Moon also known as the Hunter's Moon, is in Taurus meaning that what we begin now will last. I haven't made a dream board in so long, but I've been feeling extremely magickal lately and I want to harness that energy and bring what I need and want into reality.

1. The most important thing: my family and friends, I want them to have good health and good luck until the next Full Moon and beyond. Love is so important, especially when life is rough and it's been rough for so many people lately. I want others, especially Ástrid who has been going through a hard time with her family, to feel love and acceptance from them and others. Which all leads to the smiley face.... Happiness. 

2. Tarot and money: Money has been.... Tight. Right now, Ástrid and I are out of some necessities and I've reached out on Twitter with my Ko-fi and PayPal. I've also opened up my tarot reading again, which is free. I like to think that if someone has enjoyed a reading, which I do for the sake of the reading itself, they may tip me using one of the above. But it's never necessary. 

3. Feeling content: The woman doing yoga represents how I want to feel content. I've been all over the place lately, with my medication just not fitting quite right and all of my worries piling up. I have the ability to do what needs to be done, but whether it's my executive dysfunction or something else, I'm constantly held back. I need this Full Moon to bring the power of being able to do what I need to do into my life. 

4. Learning Korean: I've been practicing Korean on and off since last August and I want to get better. I've been slacking!! This isn't that hard to do, there's plenty of material out there to get me started and I've memorized some words. So I just need to stick with my studies!!

That's what I want this Full Hunter's Moon to bring into my life. What about you??

Friday, October 12, 2018

Happy Rebirthday, Ástrid~!!

HAPPY REBIRTHDAY, MY LOVE~!! Today, Ástrid is celebrating her rebirthday. It's been two years since she started HRT!! We started her celebration at midnight, with a kiss from me to her and a gift from a friend of ours. After a few hours, we snuggled together to watch Solo. 

After the movie, we started getting tired and we had a plan for tonight, so we decided we'd hit the hay. 

So, what was our plan? Visiting the local corn maze!! Ástrid's been to one once, but I never have, and we thought it'd be a fun date night and a rebirthday gift. 

The sky was already dusty blue and soft pink, the corn smelled amazing and holding Ástrid's hand as we walked through (got lost, got lost TWO checkpoints back but ultimately exited safely) was perfect. I also got a nice little picture of the Moon.

We came home, had dinner and are now relaxing for the night. Ástrid's rebirthday was wonderful and I'm so so so so happy. I love her so much and I'm so proud of her. I made her a really crappy card, but she loved it and that's all that matters. 💕 Happy Rebirthday again, baby. Thank you for taking me on a wonderful corn maze adventure and I LOVE YOU~!! 

Sunday, October 7, 2018

Currently 🍵

It's currently storming outside on this lovely October morning 🌧️

Hello, lovelies~!! It's time for my first Currently post in a long time, but first I want to say Goodbye, September and Hello, October!! In September, I wrote a post saying Goodbye to August and talked a bit about what the month had been like for us as well as posts about Ástrid's birthday and our anniversary, Kerry our catfish who passed away, celebrating Mabon, my September Weekly Love List (I only did one all month, ahhhh) and a cute and Casual Hello Kitty outfit

I never feel like I write enough posts each month, but when I round them up like that, there're more than I first thought and I feel accomplished. 😊 Which is good, because I've been hella tired so far this month. I've been struggling to do anything. 💤

Anyway, here is what I am Currently...

📺 Watching: This month has been excellent so far for movies. Ástrid and I watched The Thieves which stars one of my favorite actresses Jun Ji-Hyun and is a fantastic heist movie. 

Next was a Korean horror movie called A Tale of Two Sisters and nope nope nope nope. We started watching this movie on the computer and had to move to the bed to cuddle because it's THAT kind of scary. I love story heavy horror movies and this one was great. P.S. I am now terrified of a certain area of our kitchen.

And our latest was the Hong Kong live action Blood: The Last Vampire also starring Jun Ji-hyun!! This was such a fun take on vampirism and I loved the action scenes. I also loved the friendship between Saya and Alice. 

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Two of these are on DramaFever, which I recommend!! 

🎧 Listening to: My favorite Korean pop group (which has an epic rap line) NCT 127 is having a comeback!! Omo!! I can't explain how excited I am!! Here's the MV teaser: 

Oh and there's this...

They're doing SO MUCH this comeback and I hope that they get all of the love and recognition that they deserve!! 

🎮 Playing: Lots of World of Warcraft and Rainbow Six Siege!! Because of the Halloween Terror event on Overwatch, I'll be playing a lot to get my loot boxes. I better get Widowmaker's new skin!! 🕷️🕸️

As for Siege, I'm getting so much better!! Yay!! On the 10th, I'll be trying MapleStory 2.

📚 Reading: Mind Play by Mark Wiseman, a book about (erotic) hypnosis. It's a very interesting read and I've had some great success with this book so far. 18+!! When the Tiger Used to Smoke, a book full of Korean stories that are similar to our, for instance, Little Red Riding Hood. I guess that, in Korea, instead of "once upon a time" you say "when the tiger used to smoke"!! I love this. 

💪 Working on: Learning Korean!! It's been a year now and I still have a hard time, but I'm getting there. I really love sweetandtastyTV which sounds like it's only about food (which is good by itself) but it's also about teaching Korean!! For instance, in one click you can learn 9 Tips for Learning Korean or you can learn about just one word, like Pretty, depending on the video. 

😊 Loving: Ástrid and our babies, the fact that it's almost Halloween and Samhain, the stormy weather we've been having, seeing people RP on WoW, playing Frost on Siege, planning a trip to Ocean Mart and Seoul Market soon and so much more~!! 

Wednesday, September 26, 2018

ShopLook Outfit #2 ~ Casual Hello Kitty

I was SO sad when Polyvore shut down earlier this year, but than I found ShopLook!! I've been making so many outfits and with their clipper tool, I feel like I've contributed quite a lot to their database of clothes, makeup and more. 😉

I'll be posting some of my favorite outfits that I've made so far. I have made a total of 12 so far and shared 1 in the past. 😁 Here's the next!! Enjoy~!!

Hello Kitty casual outfit
This whole casual Hello Kitty outfit was based around these Hello Kitty Converse, which I really really want. The cuuuute and so comfy looking Raglan Sleeve Asymmetrical T-Shirt and these ripped up High Waist Jeans finish the outfit itself, but I added a white choker and some makeup - Urban Decay eyeshadow in Gunmetal and e.l.f. Sheer Matte Liquid Lipstick in Nude Rose - for a complete look. 

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Let me know what you think~!!